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[seekingferret]

I broke up with R last week. It sucks, but it still feels like the right decision. I've been trying both to give myself quiet time to process, and to keep myself busy. I don't know if I've found the right balance but I'm trying. It's not easy.

Last night I went to see Arlekin Players Theater's staging of Roy Chen's adaptation of S. Ansky's "The Dybbuk". It was a sharply heightened emotional spectacle about a couple whose love never quite aligned, because a slew of people made completely understandable mistakes.

The main couple were exceptionally compelling, but in current condition, I kind of yearned for an ending where after Chanan's neshama is expelled from Leah, Leah is able to move on and marry Menasha to keep enjoying the heartbreaks and joys of the living world. To me that would have felt more consistent with her character, and also would have just been a welcome bit of reassurance right now.

There were a few small things that felt like Judaism goofs... a scene featured a shadow wedding in the realm of the dead, which is a totally reasonable thing for a jewish folktale, but they shouldn't have recited the Sheva brachos... lo hametim yehalelu ya. Later, someone proposed holding a wedding in the realm of the living on Shabbos, which is Not Done. But mostly it felt like it honored the kabbalistic and mythological traditions it referenced.

Comments

[grrlpup]

I'm sorry you're going through the suckitude of a breakup... glad you're taking care of yourself meanwhile. Not easy! <3

[chestnut_pod]

Ah, warm thoughts your way!

Very envious of your Dybbuk experience; I have always wanted to see a production.

[ghost_lingering]

<3<3

[calledtovienna]

Break ups suck in general, but given how close you were, that sounds rough. I'm so sorry. Glad you are taking care of yourself, and hang in there.

[sophia_sol]

I'm sorry about the break-up <3 even when it's one's own choice, it's still a hard change to make and to process afterwards. Wishing you all the best in your ongoing work of striking the right balance on handling it as you go forward.